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gracedpalmerStarted out today by sleeping many, many hours, then doing a half day. The rest of the day was -supposed- to be full of art, but the body wasn't having any of it. To assuage the guilt gods, I have instead cashed my cwhymcheck, gotten laundry money, preshrunk some linen, paid my power bill, paid my advance taxes through September, transferred rent money, activated my Panera card and drawn up a set of instructions for making a drawstring bag. It is supposed to storm soon, so perhaps that will activate the drawing fingers.
I'm definitely less crazy overall. I can tell, because it is PMS week now, and I am much more anxious. I remember being like this all the time. I seem to be suffering from fewer backaches, though I am not sure if that is related. Weight is still declining - overall loss of about 4 pounds, loss from my high point of more like 6. Appetite is wonky - last week I had a reduced version of my Swarm of Locust days, wherein I wanted to eat everything high in fat and carbohydrates. Today, I got actively nauseated halfway through a bowl of borscht and wanted to stop after about 1/2 cup of supper, even though nausea was abated. Still eating less - on high days, I've been hitting about 2100 to 2200 cal. Today, I'm going to have to eat something dense in the evening to hit 1500.
My interest in drawing and painting is definitely higher. I don't have to force it most days, I am only moderately afraid of the indelible nature of real media, and I've been having Ideas, independent of anything else. I'd almost forgotten what this was like. Haven't broken down into tears for some weeks.
Currently waiting to have a proper cycle. It feels peculiar to actually anticipate that, though I know I did a few times this winter so that the crazy/yuck feeling would stop. Keep having to remind myself that no, it would be pretty damned weird if I turned up pregnant. Not immaculate conception weird, but definitely weird. (yeah, I know the immaculate conception is actually Mary, but it rings better. ^_^)
In other news, there's the Bristol Steampunk thing this weekend, but I don't know that I want to go. I like chances to dress up and I'd love to see people, but little attracts me to a ren faire, and the people I want to take feel more or less the same way.whymc: would you like to meet a gaggle of us either in kenosha or waukegan (we have to talk to ladydrake first) sometime that Saturday? Cause I think we're probably going to go to the Bizarre Bazaar up here, and then either visit down there or go to a burlesque show.
Worked on my green skirt this weekend and watched Pom Poko this weekend, and would just like to say: what the hell, Japan? The happy? ending for one group of characters actually goes something like : "and then they sailed into the sunset on a golden ship made of testicles." Also, one of the most emotionally uneven anime I've ever seen. Also watched some first season B5, as part ofmoments_away's indoctrination and Meet the Robinsons. Re-blued my hair, and most things in the general vicinity.
whymcheck, gotten laundry money, preshrunk some linen, paid my power bill, paid my advance taxes through September, transferred rent money, activated my Panera card and drawn up a set of instructions for making a drawstring bag. It is supposed to storm soon, so perhaps that will activate the drawing fingers.I'm definitely less crazy overall. I can tell, because it is PMS week now, and I am much more anxious. I remember being like this all the time. I seem to be suffering from fewer backaches, though I am not sure if that is related. Weight is still declining - overall loss of about 4 pounds, loss from my high point of more like 6. Appetite is wonky - last week I had a reduced version of my Swarm of Locust days, wherein I wanted to eat everything high in fat and carbohydrates. Today, I got actively nauseated halfway through a bowl of borscht and wanted to stop after about 1/2 cup of supper, even though nausea was abated. Still eating less - on high days, I've been hitting about 2100 to 2200 cal. Today, I'm going to have to eat something dense in the evening to hit 1500.
My interest in drawing and painting is definitely higher. I don't have to force it most days, I am only moderately afraid of the indelible nature of real media, and I've been having Ideas, independent of anything else. I'd almost forgotten what this was like. Haven't broken down into tears for some weeks.
Currently waiting to have a proper cycle. It feels peculiar to actually anticipate that, though I know I did a few times this winter so that the crazy/yuck feeling would stop. Keep having to remind myself that no, it would be pretty damned weird if I turned up pregnant. Not immaculate conception weird, but definitely weird. (yeah, I know the immaculate conception is actually Mary, but it rings better. ^_^)
In other news, there's the Bristol Steampunk thing this weekend, but I don't know that I want to go. I like chances to dress up and I'd love to see people, but little attracts me to a ren faire, and the people I want to take feel more or less the same way.
whymc: would you like to meet a gaggle of us either in kenosha or waukegan (we have to talk to ladydrake first) sometime that Saturday? Cause I think we're probably going to go to the Bizarre Bazaar up here, and then either visit down there or go to a burlesque show. Worked on my green skirt this weekend and watched Pom Poko this weekend, and would just like to say: what the hell, Japan? The happy? ending for one group of characters actually goes something like : "and then they sailed into the sunset on a golden ship made of testicles." Also, one of the most emotionally uneven anime I've ever seen. Also watched some first season B5, as part of
moments_away's indoctrination and Meet the Robinsons. Re-blued my hair, and most things in the general vicinity.