Chip, chip, chip...

I am going to go ahead and say that as of this week, the winter blues have reached Very Bad. This is a tracking post for me for next year, and I suppose info for anyone who'd like to know the details of my crazy.

Addendum:
It sounds like I'm being really melodramatic in this post. I have considered private-locking it to avoid looking like a drama queen. But I never remember to check my private posts, and there was some interest in how my particular disorder works, so I'm leaving it up. I am lucid enough to write this - that means I'm actually doing quite well - all scary words aside.

( Symptomology here )

Addendum

I have been using coffee as a mood booster, which works okay as long as I consume about a half cup, heavily sweetened and be-milked, at a time. More than that and we get jittery, anxious and headachey, with a chance of paranoid. And coming down is...a thing.

Past Grace: When I have to get back off the caffeine, I will curse your name.

Future Grace: This is a devil's bargain. Do not emulate me.