This is what depression does
Dec. 25th, 2009 04:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gracedpalmerI'm putting together a resume today, to apply for some more writing gigs. I haven't had one current in a few years, so I'm having to start it from scratch. And I realized that I couldn't remember how long I'd worked where. I could tell you the order in which I had the jobs, and roughly how long I'd worked here (grossly off in one case), but not exactly when.
I worked at the Urbana Free Library for nearly two years, of which I remember only one. I've been told that depression ruins your memory, and I've experienced it in the short term, but this is the first time it's ever happened to my long term memory. Half of 2004 and all of 2005 are a blur, and most of them is missing.
But the LJ entries don't lie. They're crazy nutso ramblings, but they don't lie. (I'm tempted to delete my loony backlog, but it's turned out useful today)
Damn. Just, damn.
I worked at the Urbana Free Library for nearly two years, of which I remember only one. I've been told that depression ruins your memory, and I've experienced it in the short term, but this is the first time it's ever happened to my long term memory. Half of 2004 and all of 2005 are a blur, and most of them is missing.
But the LJ entries don't lie. They're crazy nutso ramblings, but they don't lie. (I'm tempted to delete my loony backlog, but it's turned out useful today)
Damn. Just, damn.