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So today was set on challenge mode, apparently, but a lot got done. Not a lot of paying work, though.

I successfully called the pharmacy about my incredible disappearing meds refills, then took the car down the street to the used tire place. They were very nice and replaced my blown out one and its mate on the other front wheel for about half what I have tended to pay at the dealership. However, when time came to pay, it turned out their credit card machine was down.

So, M went down the street to the nearby ATM with my card, discovered that it was limited in the funds it would give, and had to walk home (a couple blocks) in the sun to get some cash. I now owe her a hundred bucks or so. She also managed to schedule a job interview for 6 am tomorrow, so hopefully that turns out.

Picked up meds at Walgreens, first dodging the plethora of cop cars with their lights on in the parking lot. Went to the grocery store and used one of their motorized carts. About halfway through, it ran out of batteries and I just barely managed to dock it before it stopped entirely. Finished groceries, M promptly developed a significant migraine. Made it home through the gauntlet of excitable children.

My own migraine and accompanying non-consensual nap kicked in around 7 or so. Given that L was already home with one of her own, we have been a very flat household today. But at least I have a working car again?
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I have a habit of only posting on my livejournal when things are going pretty badly, because I am at home then and want to keep track of things. But right now a lot of stuff is going much better than it has been for a while.

1. I think I finally won brain-meds roulette. It seems that I have pretty bad luck with psych medications and their side effects. ie: Wellbutrin, which ought to be the best one for folks who have depression plus anxiety plus attention issues, made me cry for a week straight back in '04. Effexor made me loopy, panicky, sick, so tense it was painful, and briefly suicidal. A normal dose of Lexapro (10 mg) turns me into an emotionally numb sexless insomniac who can't be bothered to eat, has the attention span of a gnat, and freaks out every time someone slams the door.

No meds were causing me to constantly worry about whether getting ticketed or whether everyone hated me, plus doing anything took gobs of effort. Cutting my dose to 5 mg against the suggestion of my (moderately incompetent) psych has thus far allowed me to be a mildly distractable person with a lot more energy. I washed and hung up my laundry this morning without a half hour break in between. I had a terrible day on Sunday and it hasn't ruined the rest of the week. I'm still not highly functional, but I haven't been this clear-headed in years. I am suspicious...

2. I've done more art this year than I have in yonks. This is largely due to having a very enthusiastic commissioner, but it's still been really nice. There are many issues that I still have to deal with (indecision and fear when doing anything that's not a commission keep me paralyzed) but for once it feels like I might be able to do something about that.

3. Slowly developing the rudiments of a social life. Awkwardly and mostly as a peripheral to other people's, but when I do go out, much less time is devoted to being terrified and convinced everybody wants me to go away. Also no crying afterward!

4. Trying to turn into more of a positive person that people can actually like. Focusing on the negative is easier and safer, but positive people are more fun and have more fun. This is a long haul, but having a little more energy makes it easier to actually pay attention to how I am phrasing stuff.

5. This is much less important, but I have tiny rats. They are adorable and almost big enough to put into the cage with the big boys (they need to get fat enough not to fit between the bars first). Living things are pretty cool. Also very sniffy.

I am still basically a hobbit and it is still winter, but maybe this year's hibernation can be a happy one and not that of an angry badger.

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